Sunday, October 30, 2011

My mom only had one eyes

I hated her... she was such an embarrassment..
my mom ran a small shop at a flea market.
she collected little weeds and such to sell...
anything for the money we needed
she was such an embarrassment.
There was this one day during elementary school..
it was field day, and my mom came.
i was so embarrassed.
how could she do this to me? threw her a hateful look and ran out.
The next day at school... "your mom only has one eye?!?!" ..
and they taunted me.
i wished that my mom would just disappear from this world so i said to my mom,
"mom.. why dont you have the other eye?!
if you're only gonna make me a laughingstock,
why dont you just die?!!!"
my mom did not respond..
i guess i felt a little bad, but at the same time,
it felt good to think that i had said what i'd wanted to say all this time..
maybe it was because my mom hadn't punished me,
but i didn't think that i had hurt her feelings very badly.
that night... i woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water.
my mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she was afraid that she might wake me.
i took a look at her, then turned away because of the thing i had said to her earlier,
there was something pinching at me in the corner of my heart.
even so, i hated my mother who was crying out of her one eye.
so i told myself that i would grow up and become successful.
cause i hated my one-eyed mom and our desperate poverty..
then i studied real hard.
i left my mother and came to Seoul and studied,
and got accepted in the Seoul University with all the confidence i had.
then, i got married.
i bought a house of my own.
then i had kids, too.. now i'm living happily as a successful man.
i like it here because it's a place that doesnt remind me of my mom.
this happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when..
what?! who's this?! was my mother... ..still with her one eye.
it felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me.
my little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye.
and i asked her, "who are you?!" "i dont know you!!!" as if trying to make that real.
i screamed at her,"
how dare you come to my house and scare my daughter!"
and to this, my mother quietly answered,
"oh, i'm so sorry. i may have gotten the wrong address,"
and she disappeared out of sight.
thank goodness... she doesn't recognize me.. i was quite relieved.
i told myself that i wasnt going to care, or think about this for the rest of my life.
then a wave of relief came upon me..
one day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house.
so, lying to my wife that i was going on a business trip, i went.
after the reunion, i went down to the old shack, that i used to call a house...
just out of curiosity there, i found my mother fallen on the cold ground.
but i did not shed a single tear.
she had a piece of paper in her hand....
it was a letter to me.
my son...
i think my life has been long enough now..
and... i wont visit Seoul anymore...
but would it be too much to ask if i wanted you to
come visit me once in a while?
i miss you so much.. and i was so glad when i heard you were coming for the reunion.
but i decided not to go to the school. ...for you... and
i'm sorry that i only have one eye, and i was an embarrassment for you.
you see, when you were very little, you got into an accident,
and lost your eye, as a mom, i couldnt stand watching you having
to grow up with only one eye...
so i gave you mine...
i was so proud of my son that was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye. i was never upset at you for anything you did..
the couple times that you were angry with me,..
i thought to myself,
'it's because he loves me..' my son... oh, my son...
i dont want you to cry for me, because of my death.
please dont cry... my son, i love you so much ...!
"Your Heaven lies under the feet of your mother"

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Thursday, October 27, 2011

We ll see

Once upon a time, there was a farmer in the central region of China. He didn't have a lot of money and, instead of a tractor, he used an old horse to plow his field.
One afternoon, while working in the field, the horse dropped dead. Everyone in the village said, "Oh, what a horrible thing to happen." The farmer said simply, "We'll see." He was so at peace and so calm, that everyone in the village got together and, admiring his attitude, gave him a new horse as a gift.
Everyone's reaction now was, "What a lucky man." And the farmer said, "We'll see."
A couple days later, the new horse jumped a fence and ran away. Everyone in the village shook their heads and said, "What a poor fellow!"
The farmer smiled and said, "We'll see."
Eventually, the horse found his way home, and everyone again said, "What a fortunate man."
The farmer said, "We'll see."
Later in the year, the farmer's young boy went out riding on the horse and fell and broke his leg. Everyone in the village said, "What a shame for the poor boy."
The farmer said, "We'll see."
Two days later, the army came into the village to draft new recruits. When they saw that the farmer's son had a broken leg, they decided not to recruit him.
Everyone said, "What a fortunate young man."
The farmer smiled again - and said "We'll see."
Moral of the story: There's no use in overreacting to the events and circumstances of our everyday lives. Many times what looks like a setback, may actually be a gift in disguise. And when our hearts are in the right place, all events and circumstances are gifts that we can learn valuable lessons from.
As Fra Giovanni once said:
"Everything we call a trial, a sorrow, or a duty, believe me... the gift is there and the wonder of an overshadowing presence."

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Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Life is wonderful if you know how to live

A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet. He held up a sign which said: "I am blind, please help." There were only a few coins in the hat.
A man was walking by. He took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them into the hat. He then took the sign, turned it around, and wrote some words. He put the sign back so that everyone who walked by would see the new words.
Soon the hat began to fill up. A lot more people were giving money to the blind boy. That afternoon the man who had changed the sign came to see how things were. The boy recognized his footsteps and asked, "Were u the one who changed my sign this morning? What did u write?"
The man said, "I only wrote the truth. I said what u said but in a
different way."
What he had written was: "Today is a beautiful day & I cannot see it."
Do you think the first sign & the second sign were saying the same thing?
Of course both signs told people the boy was blind. But the first
sign simply said the boy was blind. The second sign told people they were so lucky that they were not blind. Should we be surprised that the second sign was more effective?
Moral of the Story:
Thank God for what you have. Be creative. Be innovative. Think
differently and positively. Invite the people towards good with
Live life with no excuse and love with no regrets.
When Life gives you a 100 reasons to cry, show life that you have 1000 reasons to smile.
Face your past without regret.
Handle your present with confidence.
Prepare for the future without fear.
Keep the faith and drop the fear.
Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs.
Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve.
Life is wonderful if you know how to live.
Each day is as special as you want it to be.........MAKE IT GREAT

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